A Beautiful Mess

I guess we can also call this “first drama participation, EVER”. because in middle school, I had HORRIBLE drama teachers. in general, all my teachers were really bad except my gr 7-8 homeroom teachers! they were magnificent!

but DRAMA. OMGG. and this one is FOR REAL. i know drama has always been pretty BIG at Northern. and this drama event i am auditioning for is - “MAINSTAGE”. that literally means the MAIN drama production of the year!!! SICKKK.

and the main reason why I auditioned for it is because — its a MUSICAL! :O I have always LOVED to act + sing! though i never have the opportunity to do so. so this time, if i actually get chosen, it’ll be a PERFECT chance! <3 most likely i might not get in, but at least i tried, and didnt just throw away the amazing opportunity :)

ONE POINT FOR ME for TRYINGGG :)

I didnt like the Brittney stuff that much. i only really liked Toxic.

BUTTTTTT. Finn and Rachel are TOO FUCKING CUTEEEE! i just wanna squeeeeze them.

so our status is pretty good. we’re agreeing on a few dogs…

• POMERANIAN - soooo cute <33 and I am really glad that Earl likes it too! :)  this will very likely be our first dog. :) and will have it as a pup before we have kids. so that our kids dont drop it and kill it.
• CAVACHON: its a mix between BICHON FRAISE and something else. it has the face of Bichon Fraise PLUS a beard..which Earl likes…i personally really love Bichon Fraise cuz they dont shed..and they are just so cuteee!
• SHIBA: we agree on this but i dont want it as MUCH as the other two listed.
• A BIG DOG: we looked @ Husky, Malamute, Saint Bernard, Golden Retriever, Labrodor, Poodle (FOR SURE NOT, I hate the big poodles!) but we still dont arrive to one answer, i kinda want like a labrorodr retriever or just a labordor. theyre sooooo cute.

ANY SUGGESTIONS???

“Homeless”

Waiting here
For you to call me
For you to tell me
That everything’s a big mistake

Waiting here
In this rainfall
Feeling so small
This dream was not suppose to break

I’m so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don’t love me anymore
You don’t want me anymore
There’s a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I’m homeless

In this cold
I’m walking aimless
Feeling helpless
Without a shelter from the storm

In my heart
I miss you so much
I’m missing your touch
And the bed that used to be so warm

I’m so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don’t love me anymore
You don’t want me anymore
There’s a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I’m homeless

This song is probably the saddest song ive ever heard of in English….Taiwanese + Mandarin songs are all pretty sad LOLL so nothing can compete with them. but in English music i love cheerful music, and the emo stuff is often not comprehendible for me :(  

right now, i dont really have any ranking among the ones i like.but im definitely considering these:

• German Shepherd - WANT. EXTREMELY.
• Pomeranian - but Earl doesnt like ;(
• Siberian Husky - but they need space and like time spent to run around cuz they have soo much energy.
• Shiba - thats the one Earl wants, and thats mainly why i want! -.-  i am really nice about this…
• Bichon Fraise! - Earl says its too girly :( NOOO. its so adorable!
• Beagle - they bark too loud though LOL.

Thankss Erica for your advices! :)  —> if you ever see this, thatd be great!

Job hunting is way too difficult yo! I dunno how most people get their jobs. I imagine maybe other people just have FRIENDS!? like i dont have friends so maybe thats why :P

or MAYBE —> they miraculously save an employer who desperately needs someone to fill in a job, so they stop being selective and takes ANYONE. so even the person with NO experience got the job. and now, the person has experience and can apply to anywhere!

oh gossssh. its just sooo unfair >.<  they dont know how much hard work i am capable of doing…just knowing that i get money for it =P just no hot environment and you can tell me to do any shit. oh and no washroom… i dont really need money that desperately.

in fact, i dont really need to get a job. but i feel like i need to. BECAUSE…i hate the feeling of spending my parents’ money. like i feel REALLY BAD when i spend money nowadays. So if i get my own job, i wont feel bad at all! (but why do i feel like i would end up saving every cent of it….)

theysaythatkidsgotsoul:

I don’t like the idea of people not liking me.

me too, ME TOOO. and i am having probs with it..

GLEE TONIGHT!!!! FUCK YEEEHHH !!!

I felt like posting this story, because it gave me much surprise…sadness…happiness..lateness and etc.

sooo today, i have a first period spare :)<3   YAAY wake up late. but then when i went to the subway, i put my phone in my jacket pocket.. which is the SHALLOWEST pocket. OMFG. o.o then it fell…

when i realized it, it was tooo late. It fell @ the platform, just when I was getting on the subway.Surprising, i wasnt very sad @ all. I just had to disactivate the phone company account, thats all. my cellphone is soo old nobody would want it. LOLL.

so then I talked to my BF at lunch, and he said he called my phone and an indian man answered. :O omgggg i have hopeees! and then i also found out that that indian man miraculously found my home phone number :|  pretty weird.. LOLL.

so my mom knows too..great….

afterschool, i went with my bf to get my cellphone! it was soo much fun and i felt so much warmth. “nice people make my day!” He went throuhg so much trouble just to get my phone. my phone was shattered on the floor, with the battery falling out and everything. but he put all of it together T.T

THANK GOD!!! THANK BUDDHA! THANK INDIAN/WHITE MAN!!! THANK BF!!!

So, whats with the people that writes a status on facebook, and likes it themselves? LOL…i just dont get it.

Day 01 - Your favorite song at the moment
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that make you happy 
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad 
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone 
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere 
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

LOLLL its not a very exciting question. but right now i am feeling..nothing. =P   its like my usual bored self. i mean, im not bored. but I am doing nothing + relaxing.

I guess I would LOVE TO be in this mood forever :) <3 and of course, I ALWAYS AM IN LOVE WITH E.P. !

Nothin’ On You - B.o.B

OMG - Usher

Find Your Love - Drake

These are the THREE SONGS that i have been hearing, without knowing the artists…and before I even try listening to these songs on my computer, i can sing like the whole song…except Usher’s chanting & B.o.B’s rapping.

but i like them :) even if i might be seen as those…POP PEOPLE who have no taste in music.

♥ “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return”

and the source of this quote is pretty self-explanatory. :)

I wish I dont have to deal with school and career in general, but thats a little too typical and im sure everyone has the same problem. who doesnt wanna just like…float in the cloud and just having food + entertainment falling from the sky?

but I wish I dont have to deal with what other people think about me. and I do get affected by that a lot. its not just like how they look at me, but how they think what I do + think. people always make the falsest assumptions ever..and it is really hard and sometimes very embarrassing to explain.

err, this is not really a wish anymore. because I ignore those kinds of things all the time now =]  so i guess im working towards my wish!

I think of myself as being someone who just likes to relax…to do nothing…and for the world to be peaceful. I dont think I’m particularly good at anything. maybe better than some people, but just not GOOD. errrr. i like to be nicee. and I like to have friends :)  but sometimes, i feel like even if you have so many friends, without one that touches your heart, your still lonely .

but I am lucky that i have a boyfriend and some friends who are here with me !

Whats on my mind is a show that i was watching when I was wasting time… :)

iunno the English name, but its basically Victoria from f(x) and Nichkhun getting married…(without ever knowing each other beforehand).

….interesting. :P  

Day 1 - whats on your mind?

Day 2 - what you honestly think of yourself

Day 3 - something you wish you didnt have to deal with

Day 4 - picture / quote from one of your favourite movies

Day 5 - what kinda mood are you in and why

Day 6 - favourite song and why

Day 7 - lyrics that make you want to cry

Day 8 - one of your favourite youtube videos

Day 9 - the person you truly miss

Day 10 - your “at the moment”

Day 11 - memory you want to relive

Day 12 - what food are you realllly craving

Day 13 - picture that brings back memories

Day 14 - your 11:11 wishes

Day 15 - highlight of this month so far

Day 16 - something you find really annoying.

Day 17 - a picture you find adorable

Day 18 - the person you’re dying to be with

Day 19 - things you may not know about me

Day 20 - lyrics you will never forget

Day 21 - something you need to vent about

Day 22 - lyrics from a song that never fails to make you smile

Day 23 - something your really confused about

Day 24 - picture of yourself from today

Day 25 - favourite band(s) and why

Day 26 - something your procrastinating about doing

Day 27 - plans for today

Day 28 - write about one of those cute moments you wish would happen to you

Day 29 - picture you’ve taken yourself of anything

Day 30 - the most important person to you in your life right now

and god, i am brave. :)

MOVIE FESTIVALLLL. :)

I overheard some LOUD people @ the subway station and they said..SOMEONE SAW WILL FERREL! then im like wtf cuz i totally forgot about the movie thingy.

anddd then. my dad said they went to somewhere thats like really luxurious.. and they saw a lot of fans waiting for movie stars. and then they heard camera clicking…soo then i guess there was some BIG STARS.

OMG. i wish i saw some.

yeaah maybe. but i cry easily so whatever :P