A Beautiful Mess

Dear favourite boy in the world;

did you know that i love you?
did you know that you are the absolute love of my life?
did you know that I never not think about you?
did you know that the fun i have with you is so special that I cherish every moment?

:)   afterall, you are the best boyfriend ever !
and this is the absolute longest ive ever been together with someone :) hehehehhee.
-.-  thats stupid to say, cuz your my first anyway.

but i wanna be your longest too =P lets work it !

I always know i am just going to be a little scared cat after I watch a certain thriller movie or book. cuz afterall, humans scare me a lot more siginificantly than ghosts. >.< humans are evil..and i dont even know if ghosts exist. even if they do, in Taiwan its a common belief that they’re our friends. so i adapt to that belief.

x.x  and yesterday night i barely had a minute of sleep… i knew this was gonna happen. i wont let myself get attracted again. because in the end its me who has to suffer from the consequences. im just a sucker for thrillers.

=(  couldnt sleep . had to wake up at 7. DARK EYES. like an ugly panda. not even cute. an ugly one. couldnt ignore all the weird sounds around me.

literally mind racing, pounding…and all sorts of other things in my attempt to sleep :( it was absolutely terrible.

That was  very thick book.
and I read it in three days.
I find that pretty remarkable considering im too scared to read it when it gets dark.
hmm. i am a very committed reader these days.

it was all because it is the BEST BOOK EVER.

I can’t believe a crime novel..sometimes talking about financial fraud can interest me so much! maybe because the financial stuff was also intertwined with like serious criminal offences..like some pretty gruesome stuff that i would NEVER imagine reading! its kinda like James Paterson’s “Kiss The Girls” in a way.

I also found it very very scary. and there’re times that i could not sleep at night without thinking i have been targetted. yeah they need to stop targetting women. we contribute greatly to the society and we are often part of the picture behind a successful man or we are pretty successful ourselves =P

and without women you wouldnt be hereee!

confused about all the talks about women!? if you read the book you would understand how these “sadist” criminals operate in the book.

Saw Toy Story 3 today!

People were all talking about it, so I sort of expected it to be super duper amazing. and holy shit it was! Usually a sequal just goes bad everytime the story tries to drag on…

but for me, Disney never fails to surprise me! even if its the THIRD of the series. :) I was so surprised how much Andy loves his toys! its really touching.

for the record. I CRIED :’(    well, I teared up. because it was just so cuteee! I don’t think I could be as loyal as any of these toys or as great as Andy to cherish his toys like that. its just all so amazing!

USE SOME IMAGINATION, KIDS. i’ll never stop to use mine!!!

if you are Earl or any of my cool friends i would say I do love you and you know it =]

Ask me anything

its my turn to…….? :)

Ask me anything

I’ve been in love.
I’ve been in lust.
I’ve had a crush that lasted over a year.
I’ve like someone and they liked me but we didn’t date.
I’ve liked more than one person at a time.
More than one person has been interested in me at the same time.
I’ve been involved in a love triangle.
I’ve experienced unrequited love.
I’ve had a crush on a member of the same sex.
I’ve made out with a member of the same sex.
I’ve done something sexual with a member of the same sex.
I’ve never dated the same sex.
I’m straight.
I’ve been in a relationship that lasted at least one year.
I’ve been in a relationship that lasted at least two years.
I’ve never been in a relationship that was shorter than a month.
I’ve been in a few relationships.
I’ve only had one long-term/serious relationship.
I’m still friends with at least one of my exes.
I had a “kindergarten boyfriend.”
I’ve dumped someone.
I’ve been dumped.
I’ve asked someone out. 
I’ve been asked out in person.
^over the phone.
^online.
I’ve been dumped through a note.
I’ve been cheated on.
^for my best friend.
I’ve cheated on a significant other.
^I confessed.
^He forgave me.
I lost my virginity to a guy I loved.
I lost my virginity when I was seventeen. 
I lost my virginity in a position other than missionary.
I’ve only had actual intercourse with one person.
I’ve never had a “friend with benefits.”
I’ve never had unprotected sex.
I’ve never been given a promise/engagement ring.
A guy has given me flowers.
^jewelry.
^shoes.
^a stuffed animal.
I’ve given a hickey.
I’ve received a hickey.
I’ve given a hickey to someone I wasn’t dating.
I’ve received a hickey on my neck.
^on my chest.
^on my chin.
^on my ear.
^on my stomach.
^on my thigh.
^on my butt.
I had my first kiss when I was fourteen.
I’ve kissed just a friend.
I’ve made out with just a friend.
I’ve received a love letter.
I’ve written a love letter.
^I delivered it too.
A guy has written a poem about me.
A guy has written lyrics about me.
I’ve gained weight because of a break-up.
I’ve dated someone who didn’t go to my school.
I’ve been in the same class as a boyfriend.
I’ve dated someone younger than me.
I’ve dated someone older than me.
I’ve dated someone the exact same age as me ;)
I’ve had a crush on someone who was at least a year younger than me.
^at least two years younger.
^at least three years younger.
I usually confess to my crush about how I feel.
I’ve been proposed to, and he was serious.
I’ve been asked to bear someone’s child, and he was serious.
Someone has been obsessed with me.
I’ve done something sexual with just a friend.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
^on the beach.
^in a pool/jacuzzi.
^underwater.
^on a rollercoaster.
^while driving.
^while they were driving.
^in the shower.
^while I was asleep.
^all over my body.
^at the park.
^under fireworks.
^under the sunset.
^at school.
^in class.
^when we first awoke from a nap.
I’ve been someone’s first kiss.
I’ve been someone’s first love.
I’ve taken someone’s virginity.
^he took mine in return.
I’ve never been “the other woman” in an affair.
I’ve went with a significant other/crush to the movies.
^to the zoo.
^to Disneyland.
^to a baby shower.
^to a party.
My first date was at the movies.
I had a crush on the boy next door when I was little.
I’ve had sex in the shower.
^on a bed.
^on the floor.
^on my/their parent’s bed.
^in the bathroom.
I’ve had oral sex in a car.
I’ve had oral with just a friend.
I’ve done something sexual while driving.
I’ve done something sexual in school.
^in the school parking lot.
I’ve given oral.
I’ve received oral.
I’ve had an orgasm.
I own lingerie.
^handcuffs.
^a vibrator.
I’m guilty of swallowing.
I’ve taken a romantic walk on the beach.
I’ve had a picnic on the beach with that special someone.
I’ve taken a nap with a significant other.
I’ve taken a nap with a crush.
I like to spoon.
I love cuddling :)
I’ve never had a sleepover with the opposite sex.
^…yet.
My parents adore my current significant other.
My siblings adore my current significant other.
My significant other’s family likes me.
I’ve dated someone whom my parents didn’t like.
^who was in a different political party.
^who was of another ethnicity.
When I have a boyfriend, I call him by terms of endearment.
I’ve dated somebody who was in a band.
^a rock band. 
^the school’s marching band.
^jazz band.
I’ve dated somebody who played sports.
^lacrosse.
^tennis.
I’ve dated somebody who played an instrument.
^trumpet.
^trombone.
^guitar.
^tuba.
^saxophone.
^drums.
I’ve dated the drum major of the marching band.
I’ve been complimented on my eyes.
^my hair.
^my boobs.
^my humor.
^my smile.
^my overall personality.
^my overall looks.
I’ve been sang to.
I’ve cuddled with somebody under a warm blanket on a rainy day. 
I’ve been called a tease.
I don’t consider myself to be a flirt.
I’ve fallen for my best friend (of the opposite sex).
^we ended up dating.
I’ve liked someone who already had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
I’ve like someone while I was already dating someone else.
Somebody has “stolen” a significant other from me.
I’ve flirted with a friend’s crush.

Before summer even started, I collected many summer-loving photos in my tumblr. omg. how much i really expected its come about. one of the photos illustrates how we THINK summer would be.. and how it actually is!

hmm. thats quite funny. :) because my summer is exactly what i expected it to be!

the best part about my summer is all the pretty clothes :D in Canada, the whole entire year in every single store..people sell summer clothes! and ive collected them throughout the year — hmmm. i can wear THIS in the summer! which is pretty much…six months away!

now i can actually wear them and feel pretty in them :) I want to take more pictures on the clothes i wear and put them on tumblr because i really like them and i want to share it with you !

Punky but melodic and un-mean, music that made you want to jump up and down hard, but that didn’t make you want to smash things.

- Dev (Belong To Me)

OMG. this hit me. maybe not so much the “punky” part. but the melodic.. jumping up and down… DONT want to smash things!

thats my type of music! i want to hear melodies…i dont want to hear haters singing.. and i want ot be happy & GLEE instead of smashing things!