A Beautiful Mess

I can’t say its good or bad. but two big things make up my weekend:

• McMaster Fall Preview
• SICK -> ASTHMA, FEVER..etc

lets start with McMaster. That’s a dream university right there. Since I was like 3, I’ve been listening to my parents say how amazing U of T is. okay. sure, its good. it has many resources and it is the largest university in Ontario. but from looking at everything, first of all, not living in residence is not what I want.

I want to go to McMasterrrrr! they have the best biology program. everyone says so including this health sci professor himself. LOL I tend to trust good sayings about an institute that COMES FROM the institute itself. x_x

and we went there. though Hamilton outskirt is not the prettiest place Ive been to…McMaster is soooo nice!

We went to info session which has NO HELP whatsoever. ;((  so i just stayed in this big, humid (600 students) lecture room listening to good ol’ health science professional talking about life. and thats not what I need right now because too many people have that kinda talks with students, you know? so i escaped halfway :P

and we also went to look @ residences. its pretty coool. most of the traditional style residences are ancient-looking. and they look pretty nice to me! there is this one residence building that is SOOO small! I bet everyone is best friends with each other. i think thats sooo cool :)

and we had this senior taking us on campus tour! we went to many places..like the athletic centre, health sci library, bio labs and stuff. everything is pretty cool!

but I was soooooo sick.

NOW I AM SO FUCKING SICK. I had ASTHMARRRR. and and and and and..i cant breathe! I wanna die! and I am not even gonna go to shcool tomorrow. this sucks hell! cuz I have a test tomorrow >.<

Was supposed to go to this scavenger hunt thing with my friends butttt blaaah i cant go anymore cuz I would be out of breathe the second I leave my house.

x.x my fingers are the only active site in my body.

patheeticc. hope i get well soon!

Though I already try my best to please everyone. it is still impossible. Just a harmless smile can anger other people. and get cursed for it. ;( 

Maybe I misunderstood.. but Life is always full of misunderstandings. and thats fucked.

Today is her birthday. she’s supposed to have a fun and nice celebration .

but instead, she was home sick. :( aaaawwwww. She doesnt get sick very often, but when she gets sick, its really severe. especially cuz shes a really stressful person. ;[  it adds on to her illness.

this itme she got “THE FLU” . she got the stomach flu. and since 12 in the morning, apparently, she has been vomiting non-stop. she vomited 2 bags of stuff…and stomach acid and shit came out. :(

I feel so bad that I didnt even hear a thingggg! she didnt wanna wake me up :[  mamammaaaa.

well, lets hope she gets better!
and after she does, we’re gonna go to a restaurant to celebrate it + her birthday! <3

AGAIN AND AGAIN.

there’s honestly NO END to this.

I applied again for a job that was posted on the cineplex website…..and nothing. they found someone better. arrrrrghhhh.

I’ve been trying for 4 months nowww! and i tried soooo many places you wouldnt understand. Just that..everytime I hand in my resume, there is this excitement and tremendous hope.

well —>  dont have hopes. and you wont fall.

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this book is probably the most unique book I have ever read.

Although I left it unfinished, because of the stupid library due date…but well, i guess, thats the only way this public library system could ever work.

This book talks about different stories, different people. but it centres around this same group of people. An Irish Monk and the propstitutes that he provides washroom for in Bronx.

“I just dont want them to pee on the streets.”

I don’t think I am intelligent enough to understand the true intelligence and meaning of this book. But all the emotions, events and people in the book are so lively and real.

Except the man who was walking + lying + sitting on a wire that connects the twin towers…very very high up the sky.

I think I might read this book again when I am older. just so i can understand it fully. but its a heather’s pick - Guaranteed read.

Not that many people @ my school followed this event. but every purple shirt worn raises a smile on my face :)  and tumblr also wears purple today! its amazing. <3

This event is raising awareness around the world about the people who are victims of homophobia.. and I didnt know how much it would strike someone before I heard Kurt’s quote on glee.

God’s kind of a jerk, isnt he?

I mean, he makes me gay, and has his followers going around telling me it’s something that I chose. As if someone would choose to be mocked every single day of their life.

that was such a heartbroken scene :(   I dont agree with him about how god is a jerk. it is the religion and how people make God seem like.

but yeaah. I wore my purple leggings; yes, it is sort of a halloween costume looking leggings. because they are BRIGHT PURPLE. nobody wears that….so this sort of gave me an excuse to wear it ;)   hahaaa earl.

so what did you guys wear today?

Why do my days have to go so extreme?

One day, I might be happy all the time and all smiley and etc. but the other day, i feel shit, i forget everything, i do all the horrible things…and my brain just get shut down.

its not supposed to be like this :( 

I must say its the NERDIEST BLOG :)  but i loveeee it. I love people who read books! because me myself is a bookwarm! but i hate how school always takes away the time that I get with books >.<

Yesterday, I just realized that she doenst like all teen novels, but she likes dark fantasy! I wanna introduce a series that I have read..that absolutely blew my mind. and it is dark fantasy, but it isnt anything I’ve read before. its basically dark fantasy for adults.

it talks about many things like vampires, werewolves, half people half animal…and that sort of things. the best thing about this series is that it puts together all of them into a world of amazingness!

the best thing about this book is that it tells us that not everything is as it seems. the dark dont always kill people and the light dont always save people.

I strongly recommend it :)

fartwithheadphoneson:

Trust me, I’ve tested the theory enough to now call it a simple fact.

They’re good at other stuff, too.

Like the Internet! VERY good at the Internet.

I love the Internet.

<3 my E.P. who is not HOME RIGHT NOW :@:@:@:@:@

you are a sainttt :) 

I havent had any new followers for so long!

*BIG SIGH*. honestly, why is this so difficult.. for us the couple, that desperately needs MONEYYYYY!

why wont they open their eyes (or even wipe them clean) to recognize that we are the two people that YOU need! able-bodied, work hard, great work ethic..whats wrong with you guys. >.<

I want it so I can be independent. so i have some sort of cool experience. I like the feeling of being employed, MAN!!!

pleasseeee call meee soon :) <3

Glee this week was so much better than the one from last week! maybe its because Im not all that into spirituality. >.<

but I DO NOT ENJOY how Sam is hitting on Quinn and Quinn has now put down her defence and theyre dating!

cuz to me, Quinn is still a big bitch. and Sam is like a pure, innocent niner kind of thing. it just feels super disgusting. it wouldve been better if he was with Tina or something. or even Brittany. two blonds. hmm.

:)  yeaaah, but I LOVE the song “LUCKY!” not a big fan of the glee version. but LOVE THAT SONG!

Taiwanese shows honestly talk about food so much. and thats why I love it so much!

so then me and my mom pulled out my aunt’s recipe. and it actually has so much cakes and sweet stuff! I am currently working towards CHEESE CUPCAKE !

watch me roar x-)